Last night I dreamt that I was walking in my mother’s house and came across what could only be defined as a cardboard cut out talking version of my dad.
He yelled at me, “What do you want?”
I screamed, “To be your daughter,”
He screamed back, “I’ve done everything within in my power to make you go away. I never wanted you in my life. Leave!”
Enraged, I stabbed this paper cutout with a butcher knife and woke up screaming in sobs.
I guess the pain of his abandonment still runs deep.
I’ve been so far removed from my emotions that they are coming up in my dreams.
There is nothing worse than the betrayal of ones own family.
I don’t miss him, but what he did still hurts. It cuts deep, and maybe that’s what my stabbing was about.
He left my brother and I, while under the spell of a seductress, and now our family is left in shambles, including him. My mother has been gone just under three years, but it feels like an eternity. Oh, to have her back.
But I’m slowly piecing myself back together in therapy.
Any thoughts on what this dream could mean?